code of the streets // gang starr
i'm hannah from texas and i'm an 18 year old weirdo who wears socks with her sandals
"Cakes have gotten a bad rep. People equate virtue with turning down dessert. There is always one person at the table who holds up her hand when I serve the cake. No, really, I couldn’t she says, and then gives her flat stomach a conspiratorial little pat. Everyone who is pressing a fork into that first tender layer looks at the person who declined the plate, and they all think, That person is better than I am. That person has discipline. But that isn’t a person with discipline; that is a person who has completely lost touch with joy. A slice of cake never made anybody fat. You don’t eat the whole cake. You don’t eat a cake every day of your life. You take the cake when it is offered because the cake is delicious. You have a slice of cake and what it reminds you of is someplace that’s safe, uncomplicated, without stress. A cake is a party, a birthday, a wedding. A cake is what’s served on the happiest days of your life. This is a story of how my life was saved by cake, so, of course, if sides are to be taken, I will always take the side of cake."
Jeanne Ray (via seulray)
U know how in winter it gets so cold and u think u will never be hot again and in summer it gets so hot u think u will never be cold again I think that is how it is with ur feelings like when u r sad u think u will never be happy and when u r happy u think u will never be sad. But u will be hot again and u will be cold again and u will be sad again but most of all u will be happy again
This is so relevant
I know a lot of people on this website won’t agree with what I say in this post, or the fact that I posted it at all, but I don’t have another outlet to express this, so I’m taking this time and space to do so.
I’ve been in a relationship for almost four months now. It’s not a long time by any means, but it seems like much longer. This relationship has had its ups and downs (mostly downs) but I wouldn’t trade it for the world. That being said, it’s not going well right now, worse than usual, and I’m at a crossroads in my heart and head about what to do.
For the first time in months, I’ve been praying. Not as regularly as I know I should, but I’m turning to someone who I know will give me the best advice and make sure I make it out of this storm alright: Jesus. That’s where this post gets controversial. My boyfriend doesn’t believe in God, and for awhile that’s been okay with me. But now that this relationship is really feeling the strain of long-distance, it’s been bothering me more. I’m asking for help and guidance from The Father because I know He has a plan for me that’s bigger and better than I can imagine. What I’m really struggling with, though, is hearing Him. I don’t know what to do, and I’m waiting on answers, but I’m upset and lost and grasping desperately to understand what’s going on.
This issue stems much deeper than a boy. I’ve been pushing God away for almost an entire year, and it’s finally catching up with me. I’m realizing now how much damage I’ve caused, to myself and others, simply because I wasn’t listening. My major is changing, my friends are changing, my opinions are changing, and all of this personal turmoil is happening as the world is changing even faster around me.
I’m not asking for advice from friends, because this relationship is something different, and no one I’ve talked to so far has any clue how it’s even gone on this long. But I think the answer is that we love each other, very simply. He’s my person; I can talk to him about anything, and even if he doesn’t get it or he doesn’t have great advice, I’ll feel better at the end of it. And I can be myself with him. He knows my faults and still loves me.
Unfortunately, he’s also lost in this web of distance. It’s pulling us apart, as a couple and as individuals, and it’s miserable most of the time. But I’m still not ready to let go, and I don’t know why. Do I even want to know why? Probably not. I just want to feel okay again. I want to wake up in the morning and feel ready for the day. I want to sleep through an entire night (I haven’t in weeks). I want to eat a full meal without feeling like I’m going to vomit, or actually vomiting, which happens most of the time too. I want to be the woman I used to be; I want to know who I am again.
I’m hoping that writing this post will make me reflect less on how lonely I’ll be when this relationship is over, and more on how loved I am by other people and by The Father. I’m also hoping it’ll help me decide how to move forward, or help me listen to the answer for which I’m waiting. Until then, I’m going to try to eat something, and immerse myself in working, professionally and physically. Sorry about this insanely long post, and if you read the whole thing, thanks.
To everyone who says it’s too expensive to eat on a budget.
Okay. Everything on here is at least 2x as much where I live. idk what town you live in or where you get your info, but it’s not true for everyone everywhere.
yeah seriously i’d love to live where you live cause this stuff isn’t NEARLY as cheap where i am. also not everyone has time to come up with ideas for and cook a full meal. yes, it’s easier/cheaper than people think to eat healthfully, but it’s also definitely hard to do it, requires a lot of time commitment, and the prices of a lot of this stuff are not comparable to reality.